The most important stories we tell ourselves are the spiritual ones about our human experience. Specifically, the love stories of our lives.
Reiki is the ability to bring all your unconscious patterning into clear daylight, and when the pale skin of doubt, disbelief, and fear emerged yesterday from the pain in my left shoulder (i.e, the feminine energy’s ability to receive), I understood why this was a soft spot.
This bruise in my energy field, which is physically located between my heart and throat chakras, had tampered my ability to receive and express and so crying every day this past week was the next best release and relief.
This is how relationships with specific people, because this tenderness aligns with one person in particular, can be a mirror for your own healing. For me, it made me question my entire philosophy of love by forcing me to confront several false statements I had unknowingly adopted and been believing for years:
- Fear that love would elude me in this lifetime.
- Fear that my love, our love, his love, would never be fully expressed; an inability to realize its full potential in this 3D world.
- Fear that I would not be able fulfill my life’s purpose without this kind of love and relationship. This includes getting married and having children – they are part of my legacy, and the ache of those futures being in question has been intensely painful.
- The belief that it would take a miracle for me to find love; that the inevitable meet cute would require extraordinary circumstances.
- That the nature of my love was an “against all odds” type of love that would find a way to make it, no matter what, once (and only if) it was found.
- Fear that I would not be fully and intimately known, seen, and understood in this lifetime, which to admit out loud, breaks my own heart wide open.
All of these sentiments have resonated into the truth of my reality. What a predicament to untangle internally – that’s why it’s easier for the body to address it as shoulder pain. Look into this for me, please.
And once we do, we can make our own changes to the timeline. I can rewrite these beliefs to what I know is true about my love and how it feels – that it is not separate from me. It goes wherever I go. Giving and receiving is as easy and routine as the inhale and exhale of my breath or the pump of blood into and out of my heart.
Healing means closing the loop on your learnings. This cycle is now complete, allowing the pain to dissipate and the energy to flow more freely throughout my body, revitalizing each cell with a refreshing spirit that knows better now. I will engage differently with the world, knowing that the love and abundance I seek is already here, ready to be reflected back to me in my relationships.
Because love is coherence within your own body – that is how we magnetize and radiate and ripple across time and space. There are no odds to beat inside of us. There is nothing to struggle against. And love that is true doesn’t need a narrative to explain its existence because the mind falls quietly in line. This is how we become fearless in our expression, the glow up, if you will. Love is present. What it can do, through you, is the miracle.
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